*Originally published 1/29/19*
This week should have been the start of my last semester of college. I should have been getting “senioritis” again and sending out my resume to entire the so-called “real world”—but that is not how my life turned out and that is okay.
Instead of getting sad that my life is not going according to plan and that I am falling behind my peers, I am celebrating how far I have come.
This time last year, I was getting paralyzed all the time. I was unable to go to school, drive or even work. I was pretty much confined to my house, being monitored like an infant in case a paralysis attack happened.
Now, I am entering my 6th semester of college—it is still part-time but that is huge. I am not only nannying 3 times a week, but I am djing a couple nights a week too. I am a student blogger for my college and I am still working on the Lyme Education Tour. I also have an incredible internship with The Mighty where I am able to help spread awareness about Lyme and other chronic illnesses and it is a dream come true!
Probably one of my biggest accomplishments is that I am exercising everyday—I don’t just mean the light Pilates I had been doing either. My brother and I started boxing and lifting weights— I can now lift anywhere from 25-120 lbs. depending on the exercise. Last year, I couldn’t even lift my own head up. So it is safe to say that I feel pretty amazing.
Sure I still have my bad days, but I just remind myself of how far I have come. I have seen rock bottom— I lived there for quite a while actually—and I know I am nowhere near it right now. I am not in remission (yet), but the road to recovery is looking less bumpy.
I am living my life—it is not how I planned, but I am loving it just the same! So no, I am not graduating in the spring of 2019 like I thought I would all my life, but that is okay. I will graduate someday, but for now, I am just happy to be where I am—feeling good and thriving.
Comments